Energy

"I don't give a damn for a man that can only spell a word one way" -Mark Twain

And so you're sitting there

and you're wondering for how long??

HOW LONG? Until I do this or that..

Until I get up,

go to the refrigerator,

eat, HOW LONG??

And it will take you

a second to get up

and a minute to be at the fridge

and maybe a half hour to eat.

And you're all caught up in yourself,

in your thoughts.

YOU WANT.. MORE ENERGY

And what is this ENERGY?

Well, your science teacher talked about:

-solids (real close particles)

-liquids (spread out somewhat particles)

-gases (farrr apart particles)

... and you sort of took it in ...

sort of comprehended it,

in that you

told yourself in words > pictures > symbols > gibberish

You told yourself,

some things (hard ones) are solid

and some things (watery ones) are liquids

and some things (hard to grasp, but there ones) are gases.

But you never really thought about what it is they were.

You just sort of took them in as WORDS:

S O L I D S

L I Q U I D S

G A S E S

and were done with it. Easy enough. Said and done.

And you closed the book. The problem is,

the book never closes. You can't close a book that's always

open...

And in that book is your

life...

that thing that's just sort of

going on around you all the time,

just sort of

HAPPENING

You know, it kind of just flows from

one scene

to the next.

Like you go the refrigerator, and then

to the table,

and then back to another room,

and so on.

And during that time you're interacting

with all sorts of things

that you've turned into WORDS,,,

SYMBOLS.

Because you have to turn things into

SYMBOLS to make sense of them.

Because if things didn't make sense

you'd go insane,

at least that's what

ma

and

pa

and teacher

said

(aka the sane ones).

Why? Easy,

because they too

were in your position:

kind of like thrown here,

and then, all confused,

started trying to make

sense of it all,

trying to grasp it

permanently.

But the problem is:

things aren't permanent.

Things are impermanent.

Everything is. Even "you."

Even the Earth and the Sun

and the Solar System are going

to be gone someday.

But they're not going to really

be gone...

They're just going to change,

sort of like you will, sort of like

an apple will when it starts to rot.

You see, there are things HAPPENING.

All around you stuff's HAPPENING.

In your physical reality

and in your mind

things are HAPPENING,

things are CHANGING.

Just look at your hand.

It used to be a lot smaller

when you were younger.

And that's the problem, too.

The fact that

younger

is just a word.

Created by someone just

as confused,

just as thrown into it,

just as human.

A similar someone from a long time ago

that passed that word down

to your

ma

and your

pa

and your teachers.

Who passed it down to you.

They were all trying to make sense of it all,

and so, too, are you. And so those words

really helped a lot,

they gave you some sort of

security.

Some peace of mind.

Because they wanted to forget that

they didn't know,

just like you want to forget that

you don't know.

They wanted to live in those symbols of security.

But when you come down to the nitty-gritty

everything is...

ENERGY.

It really is that simple.

Nothing really dies, or is born, or lives...

things just are...

ENERGY.

It's your mind that tells you different.

It's your mind that attached

ideas

words

symbols

semblance

to things...

to ENERGY.

In reality it's just those forms...

it's those solids, liquids, and gases

except not in the textbook sense...

because

"solids" aren't really solids

"liquids" aren't really liquids

"gases" aren't really gases...

they're just

forms of changing energy.

Not to sound crazy...

I mean, really,

it is that simple.

This is clear cut.

It's undeniable.

It's all around you

and you're trying to make sense of it

because it frustrates you

that you don't know

completely, because you

have a mind that wants to

know, know, know.

Completely.

But only through

surrender

will you find contentment,

only when you

are satisfied with going up to the mountain and shouting:

I DON'T KNOW!

will you ever really be...

satisfied.

Because as long as you're holding on to

those symbols

those ideas

those notions

those thoughts that tell you

you are "you"

and you are "here,"

and as long as you put

specifications and all that

jazz on those heres and those yous,

you're not going to see

the full picture,

you're going to be caught up in:

interpretation

And when you're interpreting things

you're getting it

all wrong.

You're interpretation must come through your being,

your being can't come through your interpretation.

You have to realize that you don't die

you just change.

Death is a word,

death is an absence.

An absence from the vantage point

of people wandering around on Earth

in the vast microcosm of the Universe.

You change,

you don't die.

It's all about change.

As David Bowie says,

"the s~t~r~e~a~m of warm impermanence"

That's what it's all about.

You're in the stream,

a stream that just keeps going...

it never stops...

the water's always changing,

the direction's always changing,

the perspective is always changing...

But it doesn't just stop flowing.

Things don't just come to an end,

they change.

When you get frostbite

it's not like a second goes by

and you suddenly have frostbite.

It takes awhile for that energy

to get all befungled and change around.

And through those changes,

something happens.

Something's... HAPPENING.

And eventually what ever it is that's frostbitten

falls off...

and decays...

and the energy slowly

dribbles away

into the pool of energy,

into the...

s~t~r~e~a~m.

And that energy gets a new spot,

a new perspective,

a new vantage point...

it falls into the form of

something else.

So you don't really get old.

It's just that all that energy's

been moving around in that form

for so long that changes begin to happen;

changes in energy...

and eventually all that friction and such

causes that energy to want a new perspective,

to be relieved... to reach universal equilibrium,

float downstream.

If things are always changing,

if things always want to flow,

then they're going to.

That's just how it is.

That's how it works.

You don't know what it is,

but you know it works.

It's working right now.

And if things always change

and want to

then you have to accept it.

You can't live your life trusting

labels and symbols

because they're just...

symbols and labels.

They're not reliable.

You can use them,

but you can't let them use you.

The day you starting thinking

a tree is actually a TREE

you're in trouble.

You have to realize that

the TREE is just

energy in form.

Energy in this great big circus.

That all those words and jibber jabber are unreliable.

You have to...

SURRENDER...

ALL that you THINK you KNOW

You have to go back to that child-like state,

where things just come at you

and you accept them

as they are.

You can use those words, but...

---

you still have to surrender

---

never take them seriously.

See them as a way to communicate,

not a way to make sense of it.

You can't make sense of it.

And when you surrender, you'll realize that.

It's simple.

You have to accept the fact

you've got

60, 70, 80, maybe 90 years at most

and move on

with the stream.

As John Lennon said,

"Yes is the answer" - "Yes is surrender" - "You've got to let it go"

When you let it go,

your mind let's go of you,

and you are free to swim down the stream.

That's what it's all about.

And when you realize you're free,

when you realize you have that ability,

you realize that all the

bad, negative, craziness is all

created by you and like minds...

you realize that amid all that

mind chitter chatter,

the trees still blow and the Earth still spins

REGARDLESS.

REGARD LESS.

Regard: (v) consider or think of (someone or something) in a specific way

REGARD LESS

You have to realize that every specific state ends...

but the overall thing,

the overall ENERGY,

does not.

The Universe was created by a big burst of ENERGY

that expanded and expanded and expanded and is

Expanding

still.

And as it expands, it changes shape, and keeps changing and changing

again and again.

And it's eventually all going to fold back up on itself and

start over, etc., etc., etc.

It's why the flowers bloom again...

and why when great grandfather dies,

life continues... a baby is born, and...

life continues... and that baby becomes a grandfather... or an old man...

and...

life continues...

But you don't continue as "you,"

you change form.

You're just energy.

This isn't some

far out bull shit...

it's how things work.

You literally feed energy to yourself to stay in this state...

and when the ENERGY that makes up YOU is all worn out...

it goes

elsewhere.

It changes.

Things are CHANGING,

HAPPENING.

ENERGY is just all over the place...

wanting to be all sorts of things...

wanting to interact...

wanting to move...

wanting to dance with joy...

ENERGY is the epitome of

LIFE.

And ENERGY is FIXED.

It can't be created or destroyed.

It just is,

sort of like you just are.

Kind of like when you're really happy

or really living you start to dance around...

When a kid's happy he starts to

jump with joy.

Energy is just sort of dancing around

all over the place.

And you're a part of it,

you are it.

It might seem hard to grasp, because

you've been looking at things

as something other than energy,

but everything is energy

and energy is more than just a word.

When your fingers type you lose energy

so you have to eat/get/take more of it...

you take it from other living things...

or you get it from compounds like coffee...

Compounds that were from things that were once living...

A coffee bean was once alive...

and when you steam it,

you're taking it's stored

ENERGY

and using it

YOURSELF.

It got it's energy from the sun and then it was picked

and dried,

and then stuck in water - one of the purest things around -

and drunk by you for ENERGY.

Energy is just passed around

from one thing to the next.

We're all sharing energy.

We all want it a lot, and a lot of it. And that's where most of the problems arise -

from wanting energy.

All things are done in the pursuit of life energy.

So if we were to all surrender and take it as it comes,

take that energy when we can get it

and not ask for more,

then we'd be in a lot better shape.

If we just shared the energy wealth a little, people would be a whole lot happier.

They'd also be a lot more content if they stopped

trying to understand ENERGY...

if they stopped making up names for it

and stories about how it got here and instead

just:

floated with the s~t~r~e~a~m like a riverboat.

Stop trying to paddle. Just let the river take you.

Stop trying to move faster down the river

and stop trying to stay in one spot.

Stop resisting and stop wanting. In other words,

SURRENDER.

It is the only way to happiness.

Embrace the energy,

but give it always.

Love the energy,

but never understand it.

Seek the energy,

but know it is unknowable.

And most importantly,

let it take you